Breath by Breath with Dad: New View, My Amazing Mom and Instant Messages

We don't see things as they are, we see them as we are.

Anaïs Nin

View from Dad's new room, sunset Monday 9/10/12

It's actually hard to stay away all day, even though we know Dad most wants us to all be going about our regular lives as if this latest health scare isn't of utmost importance to us.... As if his low potassium and lack of rest last night doesn't affect us at all... As if we don't go about the duties of daily life constantly wondering if there is somewhere more important, meaningful and relevant (on the cosmic scale) for our time, attention, energy to be devoted.

Sometimes I think he forgets that he is not a "project" we can manage - there is no strategic plan (at least not one we can comprehend and follow) or Excel spreadsheet that can inform us of priorities right now. This is an entirely different realm. I don't understand it either... I just understand that it's impossible to understand.
Today, he got a new room with a new view. He didn't request or even want it. Moving seemed like a pain, didn't ask for it, and didn't know how the next room might compare....
So.... at this point they are talking about sending Dad home Wednesday. I am supposed to fly to FLA on Wednesday. Both Mom and Dad have made this trip to a business conference possible for me and for Mallory and are insistent that we go. We are really excited and eager for the experience, but, I have to say, it is hard to leave.

Mom is so amazing! Dad told me tonight how impressed and proud he is of Carol and how well she has been dealing with all of this.... Even instructed me (in his subtle way) to say so on the blog (but just so you both know, I would have anyway!!). His words were so heartfelt and sweet, brings tears to my eyes here now in translation.

Please chime in and be available to her and to Dad, even though they will try to convince you they have it all under control.... and maybe they do... but, truth is, we all need one another....

But when we arrived in the new room to visit this evening, we all agreed it was better. Oh, at certain times of day, the view may be inferior, but when we arrived, it was obvious we were facing west - the sun was setting - it was quite beautiful. Dad was free of all those damn "spaghetti wires" that require him to be attached to the wall and free of things that continually go "BEEP" - it wasn't in our hands, but this move seems, by all measures, to be an improvement.

Oh, and Just call me the messenger.... Sharing (the really good, wise, worthwhile, kind and inspiring) FB messages from this evening - thanks and love to Dad and all <3

Breath by breath,
Robin